Sunday, June 24, 2007

been working for three weeks. and what a hell it has been. though nasasanay na akong tumayo sa bus or maghintay ng kalahating oras para sa "ayala ibabaw" na yan.. im still exhausted everytime papasok ako. tapos pagpasok na pagpasok mo sa office tae ang lamig lamig..take note im wearing two jackets men..tangina! so, gising ka magdamag then you have to go home in the morning ganun nanaman tayo na naman sa bus plus welcome pollution. and the result of all these shits i am sick for a week now. and when you're sick you really feel you're at your lowest point. despite of my condition i have no choice but to go to the office because i cannot be absent and im proud of me for carrying myself well for two days eventhough i really really would like to go home and take a rest. but i gave up on the third day, i was having fever and i was vomiting. i asked our trainor if i could go home and bless her kindness i was sent home. mark picked me up. (thanks mark).. and alast! im finally home.
im still weak the next day so i still didn't go to work. i am thinking of resigning and find a job near our place maybe in alabang..or i can now review for the december board exam. arrrgh arrrgh i still don't know. what cracks me up the most is the thought that i am not that strong. i mean i always thought i can take care of myself and here i am still feeling weak. tangina! everything is painful. my head is painful..my stomach is aching..my legs are screaming..even my heart is in pain. i just wanted to have a job..save money for my review.. and for my addictions so i won't ask my parents anymore..but here's what i got.
and last year i promised myself i will go to fete dela musique this year and because im not feeling good i missed fete again. i kept missing it for the past four years. and i really wanted to go :-(
damn im sleepy!


sasasadam hussein


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